Admit It Again - Say Anything
And I don’t define my enemies by the clothes they wear, or the pretentious bands they like, it’s about how you seek to control minds, just to appease what you’ve always lacked!
"I’ve seen a lot of beautiful things, Jaz. I’ve seen the Niagara Falls and the Rocky Mountains and a lot of natural beauty, but nothing will ever come close to how beautiful Jasmine Thomas is."
Brett Nestman
Today!
- finish this cup of tea
- pick up my sister from school
- mail Brett’s valentines gift
- skype date!
- start my Planet of the Apes marathon
Having nothing to do all day is weird and I haven’t experienced it in a very long time but I think I like it.
I finally dedicated a drawer to my cameras.
After two months of living out of a suitcase I am back in Christchurch until I finish my degree and I’m unpacking and listening to the new Say Anything album and thinking about how I wish I could go back to the airport and make the 24 hour journey to Edmonton.
“The first fireball blasts into the rock about two feet from my head. I spring out from under my ledge, energized by renewed fear.
I flatten on the ground, not taking time to look. The fireball hits a tree off to my left, engulfing it in flames. To remain still is death. I’m barely on my feet before the third ball hits the ground where I was lying, sending a pillar of fire up behind me. Time loses meaning now as I frequently try to dodge the attacks.”
— The Hunger Games, page 172/173
(Source: lucykuo, via lumos-maxima)
Story time!
Over a year ago I decided to change and start my life over. This included leaving my home state, the only comfort zone I know. Moving away from my life long homies. But the pros outweighed the cons. The cost of living in Northern California is ridiculous. My life felt mediocre. I was sick of taking care of my live in boyfriend who only liked to put me down. A month after giving my job notice I jumped shipped and started over. A month after that I reconnected with a man that I’ve know since I was 13. Thanks Facebook. When I was 13 I was totally crushing on this guy. I’d geek out whenever he would talk to me. Sweaty palms and flushed faces was as far as that went. 10yrs later here we are in a ldr and it’s fucking hard. Since our relationship didnt start off by a drunken hook up, we had to actually talk to each other. I had to get to know him and vise versa. This guy knows more about me than anyone else. Ive never felt more comfortable to be myself. It is a ldr, but it’d the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in. There’s no games. No bullshit. We are able to see each other every 2mons. Not on purpose, it’s just working out that way. When I see him it doesn’t feel like a vacation, like a “perfect relationhip” that never has it’s downs. It’s real.
Right now there’s no end in sight to the distance. Possibly another year. When we want to see each other we go halves on plane tickets or if I’m not able to spend that kind of $$$ at that time he’ll take it upon himself to fly me out there. His trustworthiness, compassion, and chivalry has gained the respect of my family already without even meeting him yet. I can go on and on. Besides starting my life over, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with. I hate my life for like 2wks after I leave from seeing him. I’m this emotional cry baby. He hangs in there and always supports me and my wahhhhh wahhhhh. After I get back to reality it’s easier to cope and handle things.
Good luck to everyone who’s suffering without their SO. No one understands unless they’ve been through it. Don’t listen to the negative jargon about ldrs. It’s your relationship. Your business. It it’s worth the wait then it’s worth the wait.
Got to spend Australia Day with my family and it was great.
euphoric-underworld asked: You and Brett give me so much hope. You're EXTREMELY cute and perfect, the connection the two of you have is very visible. I know I'm only 16 but I want exactly what you've got right there. It's so magical. I've been watching your videos for a few months now and I'm not sure why I just subscribed today, but they make me so happy. I can't wait to see more adorable posts and videos from you. Also, thank you so very much for the impact you've made on my life. :)
Messages like this seriously brighten my day. I never thought I would impact people’s lives by doing this. I always get speechless when I read messages like this because it’s so crazy. Thank you so much!
P.s I’ve been pretty terrible with my ask box lately. Ever since I left Canada I haven’t really answered messages or given advice and now I feel awful going back through all my asks. BUT I am currently sorting them all, so I will be much better at it now :)
Made this for Jaz for our 7 months a while back and thought I’d post it here. Aside from a few mistakes and cringe worthy moments I think it’s OK.
If you’re a girl and you like Blink, don’t watch this because you may want to kill me and steal my boyfriend. Mother of god I love him.
